Hurry up and wait

This week has gone by pretty quickly. Sunday, We went and watched Brett's dad run his 4th Iron Man! We admire Bob so much for all his hard work. He beat his time last year by 33 minutes! He says that he is going to retire though and that this will be his last year. However, he really inspired Brett and so as soon as the baby is born...(give or take a week or two:) I am going to start training with Brett! He hasn't fully committed to running the Ironman but he thinks that he would like too. It was great to see all the family that came up from utah to support Bob. We had a fun family gathering at His cousins Jim and Jamie Sues house. I ran into their screen door. I wish I could blame the pregnant belly for this blunder. However the screen got fixed and Lovingly everyone laughed with me at me so that I didn't feel quite as stupid and awkward as I should've.:)
My favorite holiday is quickly approaching! 9 days left until we can sit out side and watch the fireworks. When I reflect on this same time of year one year ago. It's amazing how far we've come.
We are preparing for Brett's family to come up this next week! We are so excited to have everyone up for the fourth of July. Both Brett and I just love this holiday. We love that everyone takes pride in their country. It would be nice if that pride was spread out a little more through out the year!

All that and more

Here are some pictures from the baby shower my mom and sister michele threw for me. The diaper cake is compliments of my sister in law brandi pitcher. I think her grandma made it but she gave it to me at the shower she threw for me in utah. The photos from the shower were taken by My friend loraina tomblin. The other pictures were taken by my friend Maegan Durbin who is starting up her photography business here in coeur d' alene.

I've got the blues

So I think this is just part of the emotional map of being pregnant. I feel like I am stuck in between a rock and a hard place:) I am a very project oriented person. I like to have tasks at hand and I like to work on them and accomplish them. Then I like to relish the accomplishment for a short time and then move on to the next task or project. Which for those of you that know me, can now understand why I lack so much in the patience department.
I hear all the time that the las four weeks of pregnancy are the hardest. Right now I would have to agree. Even the first several where the morning sickness is unbearable, these past 2 1/2 weeks have been full of such bitter sweet emotions. I feel like I am ready to have our little girl. I want to so badly to just hold her,dress her, count all of her fingers and toes, see her smile and to know what she looks like. I want so badly to see Brett hold her in his arms. Hes going to be such a great dad. I want to be done being pregnant. The swollen ankles and feet, not being able to see my feet, the constant weight gain, it all wears on a persons self esteem. I want to feel normal again. I want to be able to drive my car and get close enough to reach the pedals with out feeling like my belly is going to get squished by the steering wheel. I want to be able to make it an hour with out feeling like I have to go to the bathroom.
I want to be able to get comfortable when I sleep.
At the same time, this is my first baby and I have never loved to feel her move like i have these past few weeks.I love knowing that she is mine and bretts. I love the special feeling I get knowing that this child I am carrying has just come from Heaven, it's like the first snow of the year, you just know that it's so clean and pure and most likely the purest thing that you will ever know in your life.
It is for that reason, I wander if I am really ready for this. Physically I feel so ready to be a mom, mentally and emotionally I know if I will ever be ready. It's humbled me a great deal. Its so true that you don't know what it's like to be a parent until you are one. No matter how closely you live or are involved in your neices and nephews lives. The responsibility of everything ways on you heavily. I Know the rewards will be great. I know it's to late now for what ifs , but what if I fail at being a parent, what if there is something that I didn't teach her, didn't teach her right?
I need a hobby other than my husband and my baby. Which is another reason why I am looking forward to delivering, I want to start my fitness training again and school:)
On a lighter note, Brett is doing so well in school! I am so proud of him. These classes have been very time consuming and he has kept up well with all other demands in his life including work, the birthing classes, the house, all doctors appointments, his hobbies, his church callings and being a wonderful husband. I truly have been blessed to have this good man for all time! I am so excited to see him be a dad.

Da Da Da HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Yesterday was my 20th birthday! Brett can no longer call me a teenager. It was a great day. We slept in, finished our movie, Went to breakfast, did some shopping, came home took a nap, did some more shopping and then went to dinner. Brett took me to wolf lodge where we ordered the sweetheart steak... Brett dimolished it. 34 oz of steak, steak fries, salad and crackers and cake. All on top of two sprites! I have to say I am pretty impressed with him. We then came home and brett gave me the best foot massage I have ever had. It was truly a labor of love. Feet are gross! Any way I will have to post some more pictures later because these ones of me are just not very good:( Definately counting down to D Day! Also Leica loves her raw hide chew toys. She is getting very good at jumping up and catching things. She is also enjoying being a house/outside dog.